∼The Middle of the Garden∼

My experiences from walking and talking with Jesus in the middle of life's garden…a blog by Janet Williams


The other day I went onto a website for a map of how to get to a certain address. No joke, this is what came up. I guess they wanted me to know that if I drove to Russia, Turkey or Puerto Rico that I have driven too far?

Knowing God’s will can be a lot like this map. It feels as if we are asking, sometimes pleading, for God’s directions and this is the kind of map that we feel we get instead.

It is so easy, in a tough situation, when we are stressed to the max, to turn to God and say, “Just tell me what Your divine will is and I’ll do it!” We want that reassurance that God is really in control of our lives. We come to a place where we feel certain that a misstep of just an inch or two could mean the difference between continuing to balance on the beam of being in His divine will and falling off into a grand abyss of uncertainty and failure.

But, over the years of doing this exact thing over and over again, I have come to the conclusion that it doesn’t work. God never does show me the exact thing I need to do. Most of the time I fumble around with the decision a bit. I hesitate and go back on what I decided earlier. I lob around a tennis ball inside my head that goes from the right side of my brain to the left and back again. “Yes, NO, YES, no.”

What I have come to know about the will of God is that it is not illusive but it is not a gift. God doesn’t gift me with His will at one time and not gift me with it at another. What God does is use my desire to follow His will as an open door to begin a dialogue and a process. God’s will is not a destination but a journey. It is not about knowing a static thing (just what is right in this one situation). It is not about knowing what can be summed up in a “yes” or a “no” answer. God’s will is just like Him. It is a part of a growing and flourishing relationship with God. He uses my seeking Him as a means to enter my life, mind and heart and build His character, strength and determination within me. That is what He is after. He isn’t after watching me to see if I follow His will or I don’t. He isn’t looking to judge me if I fail. He isn’t looking to scold me because I didn’t seek Him enough. He is looking for me to grasp that being in His will isn’t something I’m in one moment and out of the next. It is a flow of consistent truth that He brings into my life and it is this truth that keeps me in His will.

I was sitting in church last Sunday and the sermon was on prayer and this thought came to me as the Pastor was briefly speaking about knowing God’s will. It went something like this:

God isn’t looking for obedience without understanding. He is looking to build up in those in Christ His wisdom and understanding in order for the Holy Spirit to quicken to our minds His Word whenever we need to make a decision. And as for the actual decision process, He is looking for us to examine our motives and heart to see if the confusion about which way to go is because we are double minded. This means that we are containing two opposing goals or viewpoints at the same time and are therefore halted in our progress forward to make that decision.

We are a people who like to cover all our bases. We want to have our cake and eat it too. We want to have lots of money in the bank and to spend lots of money too. We want to serve our self but serve God with our whole heart. In other words, we want to serve two masters.

Matthew 6:24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.”

This is not always the case, however. For example, the parent struggling about whether to have a risky surgery done on their child or not falls outside this kind of decision making.

So, if we were to really clear out the part of the decision that serves self and only keep the part that serves God we would know what to do all the time. But, I live in the flesh just like everyone else. It is easy to say something like that and really tough to live out.

This is why a daily walk with the Lord is so important to establish. It is important, for this very reason, to read the Bible even when you don’t feel like it. Read the Bible even when all you can read is one verse. Read the Bible even when you are too exhausted to understand it. It helps to clear out “self”. It helps to refocus thinking onto a higher plain and see all of life from an uplifted perspective. It is because it is always planting seeds within your mind. Some day in the future as you are trying to make a decision that scripture will bloom. That is the true gift of the Lord. He doesn’t catch a fish for us so we can eat for a day. He teaches us to fish so we can eat for a lifetime.

Blinking in Sunlight…BLIS.BLOG…by Janet Williams…


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